What is this?! 1 not talking to me for no reason. 1 is hurting me.The conclusion of our 1 yr ago discussion was to probe when u are angry. Yeah I probe and what was UR response? Nothing. When I approach u, u choose to reject me. If u are upset, just say it out. I hate it when u always don't want to say smth but u choose to hint me? What for?! U didnt want to ans. I tried salvaging by asking UR close friends and u got angry. Ok fine. Abt that if u feel uncomfortable, I'm sorry. But can u pls freakin clear this shit up. The other one is hurting me with her comments. Dude it was UR straightforwardness that killed UR friendship. Rly. How could u have been so straightforward. Fine if u think that I'm attention seeking, then pls say it in a better way. Rly. No one goes around shouting the class like this. I'm comfortable with the class thats why I'm like this. THERE'S A LIMIT TO MY TOLERANCE. EVERYONE ONLY KNOW HOW TO GET ANGRY AT KE OR COMPLAIN ABT ME. THEN HAVE U EVER THOUGHT ABT MY FEELINGA AND UR ACTIONS? WERE THEY ANY BETTER THAN MINE?!

Time & time i protected and were on UR side when u were the one in wrong. Why are u doing this to me... Am I such a pushover that my friends are taking me for granted... If I can accept UR straightforwardness, then why can u accept that I'm more open? Attention seeker. Is that rly how u see me? I maybe more outgoing but that doesn't mean that im trying to seek attention. What for? For guys? For popularity?
I've been hurt numerous times by ur comments. Everytime I choose to forget and forgive but this time I rly cannot take it.

Had napfa today. According to Agnes and Ling, I was actually quite fast at the beginning but halfway through, I had cramps. I wasn't even having my mense lor! Stupid cramps! I really couldn't run fast after the cramps came. I wanted to give up at the last 3 rounds cos the pain was so unbearable! When I finished, the cramp Became so bad that I wanted to literally bang myself against the wall. I was in so much pain that I started to cry:( could have gotten better... I think my body is really weak. Im always falling sick during exam dates, feel giddy often, here pain there pain, got cramps and sometimes feel like vomiting:( I have such a weak body, then we had chi orals in the afternoon. Alot of ppl around me were quite nervous and doing last min work. Actually when I'm in the hall, I would prefer not to do anything. Because if I dunno how to read a word, I'll panic even more. Zhu Lili Lao Shi was quite nice but she kept cutting into my speech. The topic was about filial piety. I was rather confident since Iu had always talked abt this topic at home:) oral was good! Hope that I can score well:)

Ok my nanny just told me not to go back to my dad's house cos I have to study for prelims. Srsly. Just because prelims is important, it does not mean that it must be place as the top priority. I ard made concessions do why push the limits?! I hve a home that I want to return every now and them. Just because we don't say anything, it does not mean that we are ok with it. We don't get to see our the other family often. Being able to see them fortnightly is ard very little. Now, the adults practically dont even want to allow us to go home. So just because my sister's CA is in sep so she can't go home? Just because prelim 2 is coming very quickly, so I'm not allowed to go home?! These exams are important but family is more important. U may say that I'm childish but try not living with ur dad for 10yrs. Why is it that I have to listen to u guys and not go home but when I request to home more often after exams u guys don't allow? just because of a CA, my sis is not allowed to go home now what abt next yr? she's taking PSLEnext yr. then what? Dun go home at all for the whole year?! This is getting ridiculous! Because of the competition in this society so we have to make studies our top priority?! Certs are impt in life but how far can they get u in life? Do u think ur employers will keep u if u have a good cert but does not even do ur job properly? No!

Today I went to sukira! I think it's parents day in Korea. Wook cried after he read his message to his parents. Sungmin was a rly great brother to him by hugging him and comforting wook when he cried. I'm really envious of ppl who are able to celebrate occasions with both their parents. For me, it'll never happen because they hate each other. Even so, I'm not upset or angry. I guess it's because I have to face such circumstance when I was six that's why I'm mentally stronger than most ppl of my batch:) I'm not complaining because I know that I'm very lucky as both of my parents are still with me. I'm better than ppl who don't have any parents to care for them. I would love to reach out to these ppl when I grow up to be a psychiatrist^^ I think teenagers these days shld spend more time with their parents. No matter what, they'll be your parents till th very end. To those who have a happy family, u are very blessed! To those with not so good relationship, maybe u shld do smth it least u regret it when it becomes impossible for certain things to happen? Goodnight^^

Saw a post by my friend that says "friends are like flower that never fade" indeed:) I nvr stop believing that my friends will always be there for me after I lost one... Sometimes I really wonder. Am I too harsh with my words? I used to tell somebody what she shldnt do... Thinking of it now, I wonder if it was good for me to do that... But from what I feel, a friend does not only tell u the good things but also the bad things as well... A good friend will help u to become a better person... Well... Maybe I was too kpo to go around telling ppl what they shldn't do... I really wonder if I'm a good friend. But I feel good as long as everything I do is not against my conscious or rights^^ ppl can judge me but I know that I'm not wrong:) now goodnight for now^^

I think I missed our a lot on sukira today:( the iPhone app wasn't working:( heard that wook had lots of fun with EXO and he was rather happy today cos he was smiling throughout the session^^ one of the members of EXO said that his special power was teleport. Then wook said so good! I WANT TO TELEPORT TO THE GIRLS TOILET! Haha cute wook! His mood is really unpredictable. Sometimes, e seem so moody but sometime he can go so crazy:) I REALLY LOVE RYEOWOOK and I hope to see him again^^ SARANGHAEYO KIM RYEOWOOK!